Have you ever fallen into the depths of despair? A time where you felt broken? Wanting to disappear and escape the pain? Hopeless? Well I surely have, as I imagine many of you have too (if not – count your blessings, because it’s a miserable place to be). I was just talking with a friend the other day about this… a particular time in my life where people were telling me how strong I was, although I felt so incredibly weak – crumbled to my core. It was about 2 decades ago, when I placed my daughter up for adoption at birth. I felt hopeless. Stuck. Broken…and people were telling me how strong I was. I didn’t understand it – I felt too weak to persevere. Too weak to move forward. I felt like a failure.
But I understand now. I survived. I got back up (eventually). I learned some incredible lessons. I moved forward. And enduring those depths of my despair has helped shape me into who I am – and I AM stronger because of it. We’re all evolving (hopefully). We’re all growing and learning (hopefully). We’re all enduring.
I think of this today… so many out there feel hopeless. Anxious. Miserable. Depressed. So many suffering. We’re all human. We’re all broken, to some degree or another. Some have been dealt “worse cards” than others. But something beautiful can come out of the brokenness. It makes me think of this lovely practice in Japan, called Kintsugi. It’s the art of repairing broken pottery with gold; embracing flaws and “brokenness” to create an even stronger more beautiful piece of art. I bought this vase last year (pictured here) as a reminder of that.
Something incredible is happening right now as we all endure this pandemical storm together. We are challenged with the swirl of rapid pivots in our life, heartbreak, having to make hard choices, dealing with so many unknowns and uncertainties, contradicting “facts”… all while the priorities in our life are emerging & being revealed to us (if we’re open to seeing it). What’s most important to us? What are we focusing our energy and efforts towards? Are we being prideful? Stubborn? Ignorant to “the other side of things”? Close minded with a hardened heart? Are we being loving and understanding? Patient? Are we seeking to make a positive contribution? Are we praying? Do we even believe in God? There’s a lot to assess and reevaluate as we are challenged with some seemingly impossible, hopeless conditions and situations – nationally and world wide.
I love how Pastor Rick Warren described this coronavirus storm, something to the effect of: “We’re all in this storm together, but we’re in many different boats; some are in yachts, some are in row boats missing an ore, while others are hanging onto a piece of driftwood for dear life” but we are all having to cope with this!
I pray that if you feeling hopeless, or broken – that you reach out…To me, I’M SERIOUS. To a friend. To a Pastor (I’ll give you my pastor’s cell # if you want 😊). But remember – YOU WILL PERSEVERE! And when you look back, you’ll know you’re stronger because of it!
“And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.” 1 Peter 5:10