Failing to Success… you’ve heard it many times before, something about it taking many failures to be successful, or failing leads to success, or there’s no straight path to success…
Well I’m on Day 10 of a juice-only fast and I am SUCCESSFULLY FAILING! I mean, I’ve done it! 10 days! But I have had a couple weak times and slipped up. I’d say I’ve been “successful” 95% of the time… so does that 5% slip up mean I failed? I was really hung up on 100% perfection the first few times I fasted and contemplated “what really is success”?… in regards to fasting and in general. Is it perfection? The attempt of something difficult? Learning from failures? Well, I’ve strived. I failed. I got back up. I tried again. I am pushing through the hard times and, for the most part, I’m victorious. Or not… depending on what side of the coin you look at. And I choose to look at this entire fasting experience as a SUCCESSFUL learning experience! It is very important to set goals, and intentions, and I pray for them daily. To share with you – my goal is to complete at least 2 more weeks of this fast (pending provisions to keep it going), get clarity and guidance with questions I have right now regarding my time and gifts God has given me, establish a meaningful morning routine starting this new school year, become more sensitive to the Spirit, break unhealthy eating habits, reset my tastebuds, transition out of this fast into a WFPB lifestyle and gain self-control with food. Lofty goals huh? Well I’ve always been a very ambitious gal and to “achieve” one of those goals is a SUCCESS TO ME! Does that mean I’ve failed if I don’t achieve all my goals? Of course not! Such a great reminder about what failure and success mean to each of us! The only failure is to quit, and this time around I am absolutely not quitting. I just LOVE JUICING! There’s no secret about that, and even more so, I love juice fasting! I love the challenge! I love the deep spiritual connection I get while fasting! I love the clarity!
I love how much more kind and caring I am to myself when fasting! I love the energy and healing! I have learned to love the process of shopping for the produce, and taking the time to juice all of God’s goodness… the colors the vibrancy, the freshness- SO GOOD!I’ve done several fasts the past few years and really learn something new each time. This most recent round, I learned that going to 4 parties, 4 days in a row was pushing it for me and on day 8 I broke down and had pizza, and a cupcake. UGH! That opened Pandora’s box and was really hard for me to close. I felt like a failure. I got down on myself and was pretty upset that I broke down, let my lack of willpower get the best of me. But then I chose to look at the other side – HEY…I got THIS FAR and am getting back to it! Onto DAy 10! I worked really hard through the days and have gained SO MUCH already, just keep going. Which brings me to thoughts of faith, and temptations in life…
I am a follower of Christ. I love God. I want to be better, I want my life to glorify God. I want to exhibit ALL the fruits of the spirit. I want to learn more and fasting helps me with all of that. When I’m fasting, I’m not eating – and boy do I love food! I am still preparing my children’s meals (and hourly snacks, since it’s SUMMER, and they’re hungry all. the. time.). And it’s hard for me. I’d consider myself a glutton; self-indulgent with food and at times minimal self-control (embarrassing and difficult to admit, but another reason for me to fast and work hard to get that under control). As I am preparing food, smelling the delicious homemade bread I make for my family, or even chopping up those juicy red tomatoes for one of my favorite juices, my mouth waters to enjoy it all and I am reminded each time, “just because I CAN doesn’t mean I SHOULD” click to read blog post about previous fasting lessons. Fasting, to me, also represents temptations and sin all around. We all have our “hitches” – those thorns in our side, those things we struggle with, from issues as “small” as gossip, slander, drunkenness, fits of rage, selfish ambition, gluttony, laziness, pride – to as “big” as pornography, idolatry (eh um – cell phones, social media, etc.), murder, blasphemy, sexual immorality, addiction and so on.
But are those things really differentiated as “big” or “little”? They are all in the same category, right? Sin is sin. What one person struggles with, may not be a struggle for another, but nonetheless, it’s still a struggle, it’s still sin. So as I continue with this fast, I am reminded that:
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Phil 4:13)
As I continue my fasting journey and this sanctification process in my life, I recommit myself daily to this fasting time. For however long I am able to abstain, I give the glory to God because it’s through relationship with Him that I am strong to resist those sometimes HOURLY temptations. And if I do give in to temptation during this fast, I will get back up, pray, learn from it and move forward, because “…all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” Romans 3:23